I have been thinking about my mission and how it is in need of revision. My mission changes as I change. The album I am working on is a retrospective. I am calling it “Ten Years of Peaceful Solo Piano.” It has what I consider to be my best work from my 6 solo piano albums. It took about 10 years to find my inner peace. My mission was (and still is) to create a more loving and peaceful world by writing, recording and performing music from the heart. It has served me well and I have served it well. Inner peace and outer peace in the world has been a worthy goal and mission. I will continue to promote peace, but additionally, I am looking to inspire people to live passionately and joyously. Wow, that’s it!! My mission is to inspire people to live passionately and joyously. My vehicle to do that is music, but I don’t think it’s necessarily the only way that I can inspire people to live passionately and joyously. I can do it through teaching and life coaching as well.
I have done work using Native American traditions and through that work, I discovered my animal name. My animal name was “Running Deer.” I stayed with that name for about 5 or 6 years. The name changed when I had an experience with my daughter when driving on a country road in the Catskill Mountains. We saw what seemed to be a large dog or deer in the road. It turned out to be a black bear. We got pretty close to it and I slowed the car and we looked at the bear and the bear looked at us. Then it slowly walked away into the woods. I felt a strong connection to that bear and felt that I needed to change my animal name. What I didn’t realize at the time was that the bear symbolizes transformation in the way that it goes into a cave to hibernate and comes out refreshed and reborn in the Spring. In a similar way, people can transforms themselves by looking into their darkest depths to truly know and understand who they are and why they do what they do. For a while my name was “Loving Bear.” It then became “Fearless Loving Bear.” Very recently it has changed again. My new animal name is “Joyous Super Star Bear.”
The joyous is pretty clear and in keeping with my new state of being and new mission. But why “Super Star”? When I am on the road traveling, performing, concertizing, teaching and meeting people, I am totally fulfilled. I am living my mission and I am joyous. I have taken to calling this joyous state my inner super star. I am successful. I am open. I am loving. I am loved. I am appreciated and I inspire people. It is an amazing feeling. What an amazing job I have! Then, when I go home, I can’t keep that same state of joyousness at the same level. I am doing busy work. Making calls. Washing dishes. Cleaning. What I needed to do was to bring my inner super star, that state, that feeling, to all the mundane activities in my life so that I could remain in the joyous elevated state. This also relates to the work that I do to be present always and everywhere; living in the moment. But it’s not just about being aware of my Higher Self in any given moment, it is about living passionately and joyously in any given moment. Yes, a tall order in the world that we live in, especially in the 21st century. But then again, it has always been difficult for anyone to live in the moment. And it always will be because it is not mechanical. It requires effort, desire and will.
I will be landing in Denver in one hour. Concert tonight in Denver. Day off tomorrow. Master Class in Improvisation in Boulder on Saturday afternoon. Concert in Boulder on Saturday night. House concert outside of Denver on Sunday afternoon. I can say that I’m looking forward to it, but when I say that I am looking forward to anything, I really don’t mean it. To derive a feeling in the moment for a future moment is not real. It’s nice to know that there are things coming up in the future that one enjoys, but trying to get a charge in the present out of events or activities that will take place in the future does not allow for getting the very most out of what this present moment has to offer.